Reality...

When I joined Peace Corps, a lot of people gave me a lot of reasons NOT to do it. There are going to be a lot of bugs. You're going to be dirty all the time. Everyone hates America. You're going to die trying to help people. You know, stuff like that. And, with the exception of the me going to die while trying to help people comment, I usually responded, "Listen. If other people can live their entire lives there, what does it say about me if I can't handle it for 2 years??"
Well, in terms of all the physical stuff that you have to get used to (throwing buckets of cold water over yourself, learning to let loose in nature when you're not "lucky" enough to have a latrine, sweating all day everyday, watching all the animals and bugs play in your house, ignoring the warning on the bug repellant that says in all caps, "DO NOT USE DAILY. DO NOT USE PRODUCT IN AREAS IN DIRECT CONTACT WITH CLOTHING.", it's true. If you can't handle it for 2 years, you're a wimp.
But, what I didn't expect, what I didn't expect at all, was the emotional roller coaster associated with a Peace Corps experience. It's not just adjusting to culture, as people would have you believe. It's adjusting to how you will be treated as an American within the culture. Because believe me, you're not the average person. As much as you try, you don't blend into the surroundings. And therefore, you experience life TOTALLY differently than a normal local does.
It's interesting that Peace Corps has 2 of it's 3 goals locked in exchanging cultures - Salvadorans (or whoever) learning about Americans and Americans learning about Salvadorans. I can tell you this. Everyday, all day, I am filtering EVERYTHING that I do and/or say to make sure it's culturally appropriate. People in my community claim that they love me, but how can they ever love someone that they don't actually know? But I suppose it has to be that way. I definitely am experiencing first-hand here what it feels like to be a minority...



